I will not fear to look within today

Looking within can feel dangerous when I expect to find evidence against myself.

I may avoid silence, overexplain a reaction, or focus on what someone else did because I am afraid honest attention will reveal something unforgivable in me.

I remember feeling unusually critical of someone whose work was receiving attention. My first impulse was to list the legitimate reasons their approach bothered me.

Some of those reasons may have been valid.

But beneath them was envy.

I did not want to see it because envy conflicted with the generous person I believed I should be. Yet avoiding it did not make me more generous. It made the judgment more convincing.

When I looked directly, the feeling became information rather than a verdict. It showed me where I felt unseen and where I believed recognition was scarce.

That belief could be brought to healing.

I do not have to fear looking within because God did not place anything condemnable there. What is unloving was learned in fear, and what was learned can be questioned.

Today I want to notice the feeling I am working hardest not to name.

Honesty may reveal anger, jealousy, control, or grief. It may also reveal strength and desire I have been taught to distrust.

Looking within is not a search for guilt.

It is a willingness to bring what has been hidden into the presence of Love, where concealment is no longer needed.